The nightmare

Sunday 3:30 am.
And I just woke up with rage and pain in my heart.
The reason a dream, a nightmare should I say that I had with the woman I love and that am not sure if she loves me still.
The nightmare was about her and her husband, they were making love in front of me.
The pain, and then rage took over me.
i felt that my hearth became nothing more than a squeeze toy in her hands.
the more he make love to her, she squeeze it more and more ,the pain it was unbearable.
seeing her just there showing pleasure with a big smile on her face, I can hear her mooing and ask him for more.
tears start falling from my eyes and pressure in my chest unable to scream or talk.
pain, in my soul and at the end a big shout telling him that she loves it, and that's when she squeeze my hearth until it blows and then I banish .
It was painful to be there just watching.
they love each other and I was just a shadow in the dark.