Lost in my Own Emotions

I don't know how I feel.
Want these endless scars to heal.
To see the light would be pure bliss,
This pain seems so relentless.

I want to live but I want to die,
All these feelings seem to build up inside.
This constant running is so tiering,
More and more death I'm admiring.

Whatever I do you expect more,
Life seems such an endless war.
Yet everyday feels the same,
I guess I'm the only person I can blame.

I want to stop but I want to start,
These emotions are ripping me apart.
I can't stand this world another day,
Death seems the only way.