Death At School

I\'ll walk myself to school today
I\'ll talk to myself along the way
The sleeves try to cover my pain
I can\'t wash out the stain
I\'ll hand over the lunch I packed myself
I\'ll give up myself and hang it on the shelf,
In the hall

My teacher is catching on
This is not where I belong
I\'m a girl who is abused
Whose mother is hooked on crack
A girl who\'s being used
By the one who should love her back

The scars on my arm are new
They make up the phrase \"I love you\"
They have a whole story line
Suspended in a fictional time
When will this all end?
When will bonds bend?
When will I break?

I have a new piercing today
To try and make you look away
From the bruise under my eye
From the tears that I know I\'ll cry

I have a new shirt today
I stole it from a man today
But the shirt is something special to me
I didn\'t have to sell myself, it was free

Then there you are
Will all that you are
I knew you loved me before
Before i became the center of your jokes
I knew there was a lot more
Than all the laughing and pokes

I pass you in the hall and you stop
I\'ll turn around and look at you
Your face goes white and your jaw drops
You\'ve seen through my lies
I\'ve seen it in your eyes

If tears had words I\'d write you a book
I turn away so you don\'t look
Take my hand and turn me around
Be the man I once loved and found
What you mean to me
Save me from the man I\'m with
Because you\'re the one who can save me

One final embrace
For once the pain isn\'t in my face
I break a frown and smile
\"You haven\'t done that in a while\"
And I smile again

A look of fear and shock
I fell to the ground and on a rock
Lying there you scream for help
I\'m going fast
This pain can\'t last
The puddle of blood soaks your shirt
He has no idea who he\'s hurt

The funeral was sweet
Fifteen of us all together
You fall to your knees by my feet
And cry
Maybe someday, but not forever

The man is gone
he can\'t hurt me
But you\'re not gone
You\'re here with me
A swift pull of a trigger
And we\'re here forever