Like sand

And I want to leave this feeling ,
its too strong for me to bare .
I dont want to reminisce of the hurt,
so dont tell me you care.

Too many lies that no one can see,
not wanting them to know.
Those words that came out ,
dropped my mouth so low.

More staring into a blank wall ,
with no tears falling down.
Occasionally a felt smile ,
yet more often a frown.

My only love that I ever knew,
someone who has my innocence.
All the time thats past by ,
still when you speak my heart becomes tense.

Clutching hands so tight it hurts,
though not stopping from this pain.
See, you were what helped me through,
you who kept me sane.

Too much time has slipped by now,
and too many wasted days have been had.
Its time to shed my love out,
not wanting to be so sad.

Its horrible and it scares me,
how im about to let go of this land.
Im not going back to where I was,
slipping through my fingers like sand.