Tears wet my already soaked pillow.
I cry myself to sleep and dream such terrible dreams,
I don't know why this happens to me it just does...
I try not to remember all the terrible memories of my childhood for they only remind me of all the abuse and neglect i endured.
No one knows what it is like to want to give up living and loving so quickly...
I wanted to give up at a young age of 7 and still think about it today..
For some reason something always stops me from plunging the knife into my heart..
I have no idea as to what it could be of who it could be..
I really wish i knew so i wouldn't have to keep on thinking about giving up and just do it.
Hopefully one day soon ill see who keeps me on this earth for they may be the only one who truly cares for me, but i know better no to get my hopes up for in the end i might be let down and i am tired of the pain and tears...
