I'm Tired Of Pretending I'm Strong

The smiles I fake,
The scars I make,
The tears I cry.
It's really who I am.
Would it kill you to look inside?

Lonley is my best friend,
Happiness is a waste of time.
Loving will get you nowhere,
Depression fills your mind.

You could never keep a good thing,
Now I can't recognize your face.
And my feet are getting so tired,
Tired from this constant chase.

My heart is weak,
My soul is dead.
I should probably just give it up
While I'm still ahead.

I thought you could ease my pain,
Not make it ten times worse.
And I thought you could tell me
I'm worth something,
But instead my heart just burst.

I'm trying but failing.
I'm waiting, but you're done.
It's useless, I'll stop caring.
I'll say it.
There, you won.

I keep holding on tight,
And this battle should be over.
You never return what you receive.
I call it heartless, you call it clever.

I'll ask one more time,
Can you please stop leading me on?
Because if you actually knew
What I was going through,
You'd know I'm breaking
And tired of pretending I'm strong.