My pen

Angry at you ,
frustrated by me,
wanting to say,
make you see.

Helping the sick,
needing my love,
the touch of a hand,
a shining white dove.

Too many words,
running through my head,
bursting out,
the things you said.

Feeling the burn,
making it real,
seeing you there.
i will not heal.

Go away from me,
sit alone tonight,
shut your door,
get out of my sight.

Writing you songs,
killing my heart,
telling me lies,
push away on a cart.

Silly emotions,
creeping up on me,
stupid feelings,
i cannot see.

Touching your palms,
feeling them hot,
needing that warmth
to fill in your spot.

A dream i hate,
of you and me,
how i feel,
it wont always be.

Awkward days,
hurting inside,
why can i love,
I want to hide.

Simple smiles,
with nothing there,
again you stare ,
as if you care.

A teenage girl ,
with nothing to say,
stay up late ,
and weep all day.

Stopping the world ,
feeling being normal,
a world alone,
from being formal.

Different direction,
you go away,
i should have known,
you never stay .

Once a nice boy ,
now a devil in disguise,
respect doesnt last,
told too many lies.

Walked away,
hurt again ,
demons aloud,
reach for my pen.