So confused with no help

Let it all out girl
just let it flow
let the tears come
they're well overdue

so much to cry about
so little time to somehow forget
about all the past memories
things causing pain

having the fear of letting go
not fully understanding life
or how to deal with things
no idea what to do right now

the tears won't seem to come
it's like we have to keep going
a never ending battle of the mind
not knowing which way to turn

part of me wants to yell, scream, and cry
the other part, i want to be held
told that everything is going to be ok
it won't happen

so confused
no tknowing what to do
how to do anything
i'm in need of help

i hate it how
someone can go from love one moment
to hatred the next
and kepp going back and forth

there are paths along the road
which one to go down?
so many choices, options
what do i really want?

do i want to be sad?
oh no
i want happiness
but how?

Not accept anything less
no let things get to me
meditate.
smile more.

oh, all of this seems so hard
i don't know how to go about this
i need some help
could it be from you?