My life song (song)

I am sitting here, hand over head,
Listening to the chants saying "Dead Dead"!
I hear them inside my mind, and am confused.
Feeling like I'm all battered and bruised.
Like my life has all been well.....just used.
Messed up, f**ked up and abused.
I tried writing earlier today but found pain.
Thought to myself, "Why so badly must I strain?"
Tappin my hand to the bass of the rap beat,
The pain inside I think has me in for a defeat.
Usually I am writing song in my life's back seat,
But now I can't even start to write one sheet.
Something in my life has f**ked up big time.
Thats why now I'm suffering in my rhyme.
It's like my mind thinks I committed a crime.
Life is movin on and leavin me behind,
Like I am an unwanted one of a kind.
Hold on guys. Slow down! Go on rewind!
Yall are movin to fast for this single mind!
Somehow I got pulled to the past,
Back and for in my life...I wont last.
My head is bleeding through this cast,
Filled with thoughts of, "I'ma kick yo ass"
That is no longer the life I have to deal with,
Because me now is 5'10 by 4'5 in width.
I think I need to redo some things,
Like the way my song reads and sings.
I'm tired of everyone comin to me like I'm famous.
I'm nothing but what my aunt calls me. Genious.
If there was one thing I could switch,
I would be my ex back. Take away the rich,
Expencive money that is worthless without her.
Because I know truthfully she's my life's lover.
Baby I know you and devon are still dating,
And that truly I am hating,
But if you can find in yo heart to return to me,
Oh my God I would be as happy as could be.
Just, I'll be waiting for you harlea.
No matter how long that may be,
I'll always be wishing for you here beside me.

Every song I write is strong,
Make sure everyone ain't to long,
But now I wanna die with a knife,
But instead I am writin My life Song.

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