Who am i to say you love me

I'm surrounded by you.
thoughts of you whirring around in my mind.
causing my lack of concentration.
the two of us are horribly entwined.

I'm in awe of you.
i find myself struggling for air.
you tighten your grip on my heart.
somehow i wasn't prepared.

I'm in agony.
the tears silently fall down my cheek.
i wonder if i even know you anymore.
the future for us looks incredibly bleak.

I'm seeing you.
you infect very soul.
taint it with your fears of being alone.
this is beyond our control.

I'm alone.
there's a distance between us now.
i can't feel you anymore.
congratulations, take a bow.

I'm scared.
you have a hold over me.
i pray for grace and dignity.
that someday you'll agree

I'm in love with you.
but i have the strength to leave.
I'm no longer yours.
how could i be so naive.

I'm relieved.
this is my time, my life, my way, my light.
time heals all wounds.
i will shine so bright.