You called yesterday to basically say that you care for me but that you're just not in love. Immediately I pretended to be feeling similarly and led you to believe that it was ok to just walk away from the one thing that's unyielding and sacred to me.
Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it and I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you but in reality I'm slowly losing my mind. Underneath a disguise of a smile, gradually I'm dying inside. Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering. So I wear my disguise till I go home at night and turn down all the lights and then I break down and cry.
So what do you do when somebody you're so devoted to suddenly stops loving you and it seems they haven't got a clue of the pain that rejection is putting you through. Do you cling to your pride and sing I will survive? Do you lash out and say how dare you leave this way? Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away?
