Falling through the cracks

Nothing i say or do changes anything
I can't please you
I'm constantly feeling like shit
I'm always wanting to cry
I stay awake at night thinking of things beyond my power
Everything is slipping and i want it back
I feel like i'm at my breaking point and i can't go back
I have messed things up way to much to change
Now I have to face the consent nagging in the back of my mind
The tickle of held back tears
The feeling of emptiness
And the effort it takes to look normal
While slowly i'm breaking
I don't how long i can keep doing this to myself
I can't stop it seems unavoidable