The pain you have caused me is unbearable; I cannot sleep, I no longer eat; even breathing was difficult in your presence. I wish things were as they originally were, but now I realize that is impossible. I have nothing but insulted your intelligence and questioned your beauty, which I assure is unlike any I have ever witnessed, in every possible aspect. Your eyes shine with an amazing radiance; your smile is divine, and your image remains cemented in my mind. It is ironic, you were my one and only true happiness, though at times you were my only sorrow.
All I can ask for now is your forgiveness, though inside I will yearn for so much more. I yearn to embrace your gentle touch, to gaze into your mystifying eyes just one more time, and to kiss softly your full red lips. If I had known things would have turned out this way, I would have changed it all. All of those immature insults would instead have been compliments. I can do nothing but apologize for my behavior, these feelings were new to me. I had not felt for anyone what I feel for you.
Now I must feel this way alone. I have pushed you away, and spoiled my opportunity, if in fact a chance ever existed. Maybe one day, our paths will reunite. If this wish is granted all will be different. I will treat you how you deserve to be treated, and I vow I will never cause you harm. Until then I shall suffer the punishment I have dealt myself….
