Never understand

As the air grow thick, and i grow even more sick.
I will never know what i have lost until i say no more.
I sit and cry and yet i don't even know why i still try.
I see you in my thought i cant never understand what i just lost.
But as i think over and over again.
You will alway wonder one thing.
Did i make a right choose.
But i still don't understand why i said goodbye.
As i sit in this world as a big lie.
In my mine as i say goodbye.