There is a problem that has been addressed over and over again..
apparently a problem to you that means nothing.
Every time I tell you this problem you say your sorry.. and say I will make it better.. and things change for about two days.. then problem time again.
Soon I may come to the decision that this is not worth fighting for..
I may just give up and walk out the door.. and run to someone else..
someone who cares about me more than just when i am sad or hurt.. someone who loves me all the time.. and shows it in more than just hugging and saying the words.. someone who will live it out!
I am so sick of this problem.. it just really shows that its all words not feelings..
I would lay down my life for you!
I would do anything for you!
I love you with all my heart!
I just really wish I knew you meant it.. I wish you could just tell me and show me.. and it all be ok!
But you have made it more than that..
you have made me a toy...someone you take out and use when you need her and then put her away when you do not but when she is broken then you are worried but as soon as she is fixed.. forget about it.. you dont need her anymore!
Honestly right now.. I hope that I never get better.. just so that you will want to be there for me.. and help me... and love me!
I am afraid of getting better..
then I will be put on the shelf again!
I know that the other person in your life is amazing and wonderful..
but I am here too!
I just wish you saw that..
but until you do..
we will never see the end of the never ending problem!
