During the day.. I smile, I laugh, I am happy!
But at the end of the day.. I am just me!
Someone to so many means so much but to her self means nothing...
I wish I could let you inside of my head..
and tell you everything you think I am..
I am not!
Every time you ask me what is wrong..
I play thoughts over and over in my head...
I just need to escape!
Get away from everything.. clear my mind.. and pray ALOT!
See.... Today on the outside I looked amazing... put together and happy..
on the inside I was raging war with myself...
to you I am your role model..
or your friend..
your classmate..
to me...
all that is nothing I deserve to be called..
Sometimes..
I wish someone would notice and just put their arm around me and hold me til i burst into tears...
but most of the time...
no one notices me..
always caught up in some other problem..
but that's ok...
because at the end of the day...
i fall apart anyway
