I cant handle you sometimes ..

I want to crush you
I want to squish you
I want to scream at you

I don't want anything to do with you
I don't want you near me
I don't want to even think about you

Why do u do this to me?
You meant so much to me
But now I can't stand you

I don't even want to know you
I don't even want to see your face
But I can't help but think about you still

I sit here alone
Alone in the corner of my room
Thinking of what I should do next

Whether I should just forget you
And move on with my life
Or still think about you all the time

I'm sitting here thinking about all my
Mistakes and wrong doings
I know I've done wrong

But do you always have to be like that
Yeah I can be annoying
But you say you love me

But then sometimes
I am not really sure if you do
You do show it sometimes

Yeah I get it sometimes
You want to be left alone
But I don't always want to be shut out

I do want to know things about you
And be there for you
I do love you and you know that

But sometimes I just handle you
You make me so mad I want to scream
I want to cry and never see you again

But I love you too much
To let you go
I don't want to see you leave

You cause me pain sometimes which
I just can't handle it
I break down in my bedroom

I break down and cry my eyes out
The pain tears me up
But then it slowly goes

The scars are still there
But the pain doesn't hurt as much
It will heal more in time

And I will be free of pain one day
Free of all the hurt in my life
I will be up in heaven with my God