Roses at your feet

Mother?
Hey i had this dream last night
It was really scary

My heart was thumping;
My heart was pumping...
My eyes were filled with tears!

You, little Jimmy, dad and I
We were all walking
An old alley
It was so dark and empty
We all held hands
Looking around hearing little noises
It would set you off!

We walked
We talked
Then a light shines down
Little Jimmy's black wings unfolded
So big and dark
Like the ones on t.v.
He went to heaven with Jesus

We kept on walking
Then a red hand pointed at you
Dad looked at you laughing so hard
Like nothing before
Holding a shiny object in his hand
He walked closer to you
Then cut your throat!

I feel so angry
So empty
Why didn't i help
But we lay roses at your feet
Then your last gasp for air
I kissed you
You died right in-front of me!

I yelled PLEASE..PLEASE NO,
NO DON'T LEAVE ME NOT KNOW I NEED YOU!!

I hated the life i lived in this dream mother!
It literally felt real...

Mother?
Why aren't you talking back to me?
I need you!
Your mother is not here...
Here take my hand child let me lead you to
HELL!