It eats at me day by day
I ignore it as much as I am able
Whats really wrong maybe I'll never know.
Ive been fighting it for such a long time.
I grow to quick to the happiness and try to forget the pain.
but, it's always there why won't it go away?
It's more than one thing and I simply cannot explain.
Theres so much going on but I feel time has come to a complete stop.
Never again am I able to move freely,
Everything around passing me by.
Missing so many, loosing very important people I never should of let go of.
I am stuck. Something calls out to me, is it from the past..?
Is it something bad thats going to happen or a complex solution to a problem?
Whatever all these feelings are they are all combined.
The past... it's so unforgettable to me for I remember everything.
I keep going over everything I did wrong .
I must say I have a regret , which I say to never have.
I try to hold in all the tears.
I try to take as much good as I can from the bad
When will the time come where I break again?
My broken pieces are being shattered and crushed.
How will I react..will it be the same as the last time?
I am dying again...or maybe Ive just been all along.
The past is really consuming me... how do I go on?
