The numbness swallows me whole
What you've never had, you can't miss
But I had you at my fingertips
Are you gone yet?
The guilt fills my head with apathy
I never gave you all of me
I was just selfish, only thinking of me
When you were dying inside, I was pretending to bleed
The whys were so clear
But there was always something still there
Always one thing that I could control
Never stopping, I worried
But somewhere along the lines got blurry
I'm willing to change, if you still feel the same
I'm not gonna let a good thing go to waste
The numbness can return, I just won't wake up
Within these long days I wanna be good enough
Someday I'll be strong enough
I'll be enough for you
Enough of a reason to stay here
In my closed arms
I'll never forgive myself
If you leave forever
I can save you, if I try
I will, I'll try
I won't let this chance pass me by
Before you erase me from memory, wait one more night
