I stood on the building
staring into the serenity of my choice...
Some may say its selfish
but it seems suicide is my only voice...
I stare at the people below,
The rush I feel
the pain I face.
The thoughts are rushing through.
I'm standing here
beaten, black and blue.
If only you realized how
fragile I am
but now it is you who
has caused me to become
a member of the damned.
You started off when I
was small...
you made it feel as if the world was my enemy
and showed me
nothing but hatred.
I had dreams of a fairytale life
but thanks to you
it ends here tonight.
Would you even notice that I'm gone...
My life seems like it is fiction,
I cant believe this is real...
It has all come down to this...
I need to end my permanent
state of emptiness
and live in my own surrealist world
where you are non existent...
I feel as if its all fiction,
everything seems so small from high above
this is the distance that I need
I need to free fall
and be left to bleed.
I need to end it all
I feel the scars and know this is reality...
It is really happening.
I take a deep breath and
it all goes away,
I approach the ground and see the shadow of the flames
this is my suicidal free fall,
if only you stopped to hear my call...
I approach the ground,
this is the end...
Its all gone,
I'm out of the life I dread...
