You Can't Love Me Anymore

Whenever you returned a smile,
i knew you were faking it
like imaginary thumbs forcing your cheeks apart,
you smiled like a muppet

why can't you love me again?
i need you to love me desperately
got me love stoned, broken at my knees
hold me like you did March twenty-three

wishing you never said goodbye
a simpleton could've told me so
never thought it would almost cost me my life
still dumbfounded by your blow

pleading for forgiveness you don't deserve,
i've completely lost all intent
i should be the one in your shoes,
fixing my eyes with yours in contempt

the thought of being with you,
again makes me angry
how can i believe that you love me,
you bring out the worst in me

you poison my health,
thinking of you lke a vicious cycle without remedy
consumed with flooded thoughts of suicide
praying the blood will saturate in my sleep

now i'm afraid to confess,
how cold and lonesome i am,
cause you fail to respond,
the way i thought you had planned

your depressing, heartless, complicated,
let me come undone
cannot tolerate this bleeding punishment
cut the barbed wires from my lungs

i have two perfectly good pair of legs
but it's hard to move ahead,
when my mind is incapacitated
loving you is boring and i'm finally exhausted

*thank you so much guys for taking the time to read. i would appreciate it most and be honored to recieve any comments/votes. hoping i can recieve feedback since i don't know if my poems are that bad.*