I can't Explain this hurt,
Its a feeling like non other.
I tryed to stay Alert,
But failed and thought why bother.
Why couldn't I get to it,
But everyone else could?
Why is one simple hit,
from you hurt more then it should?
People choose not to feel,
They tell themselves its not worth the pain.
I chose to separate myself from what is real,
but what would i really gain?
I would gain all that is fake,
Why would I want that for?
To make sure my feelings weren't at stake,
like an innocent walk across a sea shore.
I wish for a fairy tail end,
A castle, and freshly mowed lawns.
You were barley my best friend,
&& I live as what chess players call pawns.
Today I block this heart,
I chose to feel nothing, I chose to be numb.
From people, I push away, I stay apart.
I do nothing all day, but think to myself and do the occasional hum.
I thank you for destroying me,
for making me crash and burn.
because for that I've changed you see,
I've become hard core, I tell myself no one can break me. This is all I have to learn.
I fear for my future,
but shh, thats not to be shared.
To tell of my weakness, is sure to send torture.
I know I'll be okay,
matter of fact I know ill be fine.
I'll live my life, go on with my day.
so pure,so untouchable, so fake, so Devine.
