Dont you find it amazing how much i mess up,
dont you find it amazing how quickly people loose trust,
dont you find it amazing how much the hate grows,
dont you find it amazing how no one really cares,
i often lay and wonder, what peoples lives would be like without me here,
i often lay and stare, at the memories of me and you,
i often lay and plan, your life without me here,
i often lay and wonder what it would be like if i were not to be here,
you call me names,
you shout and moan,
you tell me you hate me,
you make my life hell,
you tell me to talk to you,
then you have a go,
why do i bother,
its all one big blow,
i know im a mess up,
i know im a mistake,
i know im a failiar,
but what you dont know is how i feel,
i lay, i cry, and have bad dreams,
all because of you and your stupid means,
i sit and smile to keep you happy,
but inside im aching,
hurting so much,
i lay and cry my eyes out untill i falll asleep.
