Sometimes Its the Only Thing

Everything hurts so much inside and my thoughts are so overwhelming yet so distant, whirling about and never leaving me. I argue w/my rational self and the self thats really hurting and doesn't want to carry on anymore.Yeah, I do cut myself. I don't cut to die. I don't cut 4 attention. I cut because it makes me feel better for just a few min. Its like a drug instant relief. Everything Kay for awhile. The world stands still and my mind feels clear, It's difficult to ex pain. I want to cry so badly sometimes, and i cant. I literally ache inside: the feelings is unbearable. I know it's stupid and i know its wrong. but sometimes it's the only thing that gets me through....