I think about my life,
And I do have some regrets,
I have sad and happy moments,
That ill always cherish.
But out of everything I've done,
And everything I still do,
The one thing I regret the most,
Is staying here with you.
I have a dead-end job,
Moneys always tight,
But nothing makes my day complete,
Than coming home to a fight.
You treat me like a stranger,
You don't help or share with me,
Everything is either your's or mine,
There is no in-between.
I'm meant to be your partner,
We've talked about marriage and kids,
If you want to spend your life with me,
Than why do you treat me like this?
If you proposed to me right now,
Id reject you straight away,
I wouldn't even consider it,
You wouldn't see me hesitate.
I question our future often,
And wonder if I love you anymore,
You batter and bruise my ego,
I feel like crumbling to the floor.
Yet on a good day with you,
When we don't snip or snap,
I'm happy, carefree, I feel good,
Than it all turns back to crap.
I don't know why I hang on,
To someone who has let go,
Maybe I don't want to lose the past?
Our first kiss - five long years ago.
Remembering our happy times,
Is what gets me through the day,
But ill admit to you right now,
I should have left you before it was too late.
We have so many commitments now,
To leave would be to hard,
Who gets this and who gets that,
My life would fall apart.
But what life am I living here with you?
Is it worth taking the easy way out?
I've tried so many times to talk to you,
Its like running in circles - around and around.
Ill just keep battling my debt,
And working miserably everyday,
And pray that when I come home,
Everything will have changed.
