Poetry Journal 3(June 22)

I went to church today, listened to the sermon
Trying not to cry, I was bond and determined
But, I felt the tears brim up in my eyes
Yet, I blinked them back, smiling in a lie

I lifted my voice to sing only to shake
Why won't the pain leave, how much more can I take?
I could hear his voice from across the room
Maybe I shouldn't be here, maybe it's too soon

And a tear trickled down, I wiped it away
Fighting all the words that I just couldn’t say
I glanced at up at him, catching his eyes
He looked away and I remembered the goodbye

We were really over and I didn't understand
I remembered every kiss and every touch of his hand
I can't hold on but, I don't want to let go
I blinked back my tears but, the pain still showed

I could feel the heartache in the depth of my chest
I found myself struggling for every single breath
The sermon finally ended but, the agony stayed
I went home to realize that this was just a shitty day

Dylan didn't come over and he doesn't understand my pain
He says that I don't trust him and this is pretty much a game
Why won't everybody back off and leave me to myself?
I don't need Ethan, I don't need love, or anything else

Gosh, I don't mean that I'm just so confused
But, what do you expect since I've been used?
Do you expect me to be okay, just fine?
Sorry, it doesn't work that way, I just need time

-Copyright-Amber Palmer