Just a mistake

I'm just a big freak-en mistake

i just wish god could take me from dis place

i always cry just for me to die

man I'm just one big freak-en lie

you say I'm a bad kid

den why the freak do i live

its so bad to the point i cut

but to be honest thats not WATS up

i try my best to please u

but I'm not go0d enough to do

i just want u to be proud of me

but that will never happen i tried everything

i try to hide the real me 4 u

but WATS the point i get put down even more then b4

i don't feel like I'm go0d enough 4 dis family

so i just really wanna go far away and leave

i cry so much and I'm full wit so much pain

and its driving me crazy and also insane

who am i what do i really mean to u

am i just a stupid ghetto girl that u think is ho a tagger

or am i something special your pride and joy

i fake a smile to pretend I'm happy

but deep down I'm full of hate

that i cant even try to replace

i do all i could

but I'm nothing go0d

i sock the wall to let it out

but it doesn't help i get my pillow

and all i do is scream and shout

i stay far away

cause i no I'm just in the way

am i just a regret or am i the best

yeah rite I'm nothing i will never be like the rest

i do everything wrong never right

i try over and over to get it but its never right

the only place i stay is in my room0m

so i could never be near you

i wonder if u guys really do love me

or do u guys just lie and really hate

all of me everything

i will never no

so i just let go

you said I'm the one who will cause your death

man don't u see how that makes me feel

i guess I'm the one that caused u to write your will

i hate to no I'm here

i just wish i can disappear

i feel like I'm not apart of your heart

i just fill like I'm just a waste of space

when will all this go away

is it when i take my last dying breath

or is it so0n and i could 4get

just put me down

will just make my self a steam go down

i lo0k in the mirror and wonder What u see

all i see is a girl whose been put down and not wanted

and is a big mistake that will never be to b honest

i lo0k down and never lo0k up

cause i face things i could never

ever could figure out its whatever

i fall i try to get back up

but u always just make me fall

back down so whats the point

to think u will even try to give me a choice

WATS up with me when do i get my turn of fame

but i don't think that could happen cause all u could

feel for me is ashame

i try to hide

but i think about is

the past time

the quote i made up was

don't lo0k back in your past it just freaks up your future

how can i do that when all u guys do is bring all the

old bad memories back.

can u 4 once cut me sum slack

my Friends always say whats wrong are u OK

they say why do u act this way

i just say this is my life each and ever day

i cant keep my head up high

so i just face the ground and cry

how i feel so lost and confused