I don't know anymore....
Bewildered and unsettled I sit
whimpering softly in the corner,
present in a room with no windows..
The people I love confuse me,
They love me,
They hate me,
They reject me,
I put a smile on my bravely cracked lips,
blood slides from the recent split, the bruises
on my face turn purple as the night progresses
and the pain from the constant beatings thumps
in my mind like a constant beat but these things don't
affect my charade... I smile and the world passes by
oblivious to the pain .... and as each person passes
I fade... as I am a shadow, a hollow figure in this world....
But as the blackness engulfs me I whisper one last thing:
'I love you, now until forever present or not,
I hold you dear to my heart.'
