Life is love

What is the meaning of life?
are we suppose to go through this everyday,
are we suppose to feel this pain?
is this what god wants us to feel?

if so, why everyday, why every night?
do we not feel the pain
over and over in our minds
every second of every minute of every day?!

if this is what god wants
please somebody tell me why.
is it just to know what it feels like
for experience?

well yeah we know
why must we repeat it?
is it our destiny?
or fate?

if so, please change this fate of mine!
i cant go through this any longer
I'd rather die,
than have this life as a lie!

Ive lived too many lies
Ive gone through this for so long
over and over again
every second of every minute of every day.

why oh why every time i find a good life
i must change just to feel this pain
i cant, i will no longer accept
this so called fate of mine.

but what oh what am i suppose to do
but to just sit here in pain,
with tears, and nothing left to show
but open scars and this wounded heart.

dedicated to anthony