I went to the playground
I wanted to be with the other kids
I was to scared
No on asked me to play
I sat on the swing
Stearing at the trees
My eyes started to cry
As i waped away the tears
I relize how much my family distroyed my life
Look at what they did to me
I would of been so different
If someone saved me
As kept swinging
I found myself stearing at the durt
How did i get here
Look were my life brought me
Im always scared
Poeple look and stear
They think im some kind of monster
A monster that will explod any second
I dont talk
I just swing
I think about like
I try to hold back not to cry
Next thing i know someone asks me "whats wrong"
I say nothing
I ment everything
As i swing I relize alot
They left me to face this on my own
They left me here not understanding
I feel the breeze
I take a breath
I hold back the tears
My friends have there dads
Weres mine?
He dosnt call
He dosnt love me
He doesnt want me
Unless its to rape me
Or sell me for drugs
I sit here and swing alone
I want to talk
No ones here to listen
I keep in inside
And pretend im free
Like a bird in the sky
I wish time would fly bye
I have so hurt and anger
Memories r always here
With everything i do
No one knows
Cuz i wont say
I smile when i think im about to cry
I then get up walk over to the slide
I Lay there upside down
Looking at the sky
Looking at the clouds
I pray to god to help me forget the past
I ask him to take away my pain
I slide down
I go over to my friends
THey say "whats rong"
I shake my head nothing
When i wants to scream everything
Even that hes gone
In away hes not
I dont know y i love him
My my family didnt just distroy my past
