I Wonder, Why?

I wonder why I'm sitting here
soaking in a sea of emotions
blinded by disillusionment
so inconsistent with myself
i dont know who I am
I'm just a man with nothing left but memories
I died and lived, and died again
when will this eternal nightmare end
my soul just longs for its own demise
without You, my better half
torn apart and separated by forces beyond our control
it just seems to be that my half has to deal with all the pain
I was cast away
thrown down into the depths of the abyss
drowned in eternal flame
torched by the black waters
and i sit and wonder
will i Die?
why dont the standard rules of death apply?
my soul will bleed until the end of eternity
the test of time is truly tough
but now i fear our time is up
you flipped my whole world upside down
now its right side up
and i cant look down
i meen i cant look up, into the sky
where YOU and i used to fly.
all i see is dirt and grass
its like quicksand, and im sinking fast
what the fu**?, how can i buy some time?
by tryna get deez lines to rhyme?
naw..naw, fu** a rhyming fashion
i must be real, expose my passion
i feel defeated by myself
im goin crazy, i need some help
i feel so cheated out of love
you see we never stood a chance
so we flew, wherever love would take us
and that same love came back to break us
deception is a bit**, and dats the truth
like when i said, i'll die without you
yeah we soared, and flew away
but when we touched down, it faded away
that cold ass ground is all it took
to turn the page, and close the book
maybe one day we'll unite as one
so we can scream back at the world
WE won!!!
see im the moon. and you're my sun
i cant shine without you
i always wondered, can I fly?
i can with you, and dats no lie.

Dedicated to my Love, my Life, my only

If you showed me nothing else, you showed me true Love