I am standing here in the shower
water runs down my back in streams
my radio turned up all the way
and yet somehow they still hear me
screaming your name needing you
they pound on the door asking whats wrong
don't they know how much i love you
they tell me to stop screaming
maybe i should stop the screams...
i check the razor next to me
the blade is still sharp
i watch the blood and water mix
to numb to even feel it
the last thing i see is your face
then i slowly realize that I'm lying down
I'm in a bed a white one
the doctors surround me
i hear them say I'm going to be okay
but i don't want to be
i want it to end
and i want you to be there when it does
you are my everything, my life
without you i have no life......
but there is a difference
death doesn't hurt
losing you does
maybe next time it'll work.....
