I have no one there to catch me when i fall
they all hate me
and worst of all
she does
my best friend
she told me forever and i thought that she meant it
but i guess not
she was all that i had
i told her everything
and i tried as hard as i could to be there for her
but i couldn't always be there
and i am so sorry for that
i had my own issues
now she is angry with me
because i wasn't always there
if i could i would go back in time
and forget about myself i would
because she is more important to me
than anyone else
but i cant do that and she will never know
how sorry i truly am
for letting her suffer
she hurt me too
she went out with the love of my life
that hurt more than anything
but i should of let it go
i should of forgotten about myself
but i didn't
i made her feel bad
and i shouldn't of
it wasn't her fault
he asked her out
he didn't love me
i wasn't good enough
once again
I'm not good enough for anyone
i couldn't let it go
i took the pain that i was in out on her
it wasn't her fault
but now i made the biggest mistake of all
i got angry with her
i said mean things
and she said them back
i wish i didn't say that stuff to her
i hurt her once again
i called her names
i made her feel bad
she didn't deserve that
she doesn't deserve someone as bad as me
she deserves a nice caring selfless friend
and no matter how hard i try i cant be that for her
she hates me now
she hates me more than anyone else
i deserve it
i don't deserve someone as great as her
thats why she has new friends
and i have no one
and its all my fault
i shouldn't of held a grudge against my best friend
but i did
thats why now i have no one
and she has everyone
but the worst part of all is that
i see her going through pain
and i cant help her
i finally realize that she needs help
i am ready to put myself aside for her
but she wont accept me back into her life
so we are both alone
with no true best friend
and we cant help each other through it
