That Someone

How long will I keep this up?
That someone isn't here.
What more do I have to say about them?
Those feelings just disappeared.

There wasn't a chance we could be together.
So why did I feel one slip through my fingers?
I'm sure that someone never thought much about me.
Why did I dwell on those impossibilities?

Was it just their looks?
I never really understood.

Somehow...
I won't doubt I'm that shallow.
Just like...
I won't doubt I loved that someone.

Small smiles appeared when that someone came to mind.
Insanity ensued in its depths.
Something ensued in in the depths of my heart.
I beat myself up and tore me apart.

It's clear that someone doesn't remember.
It would make sense.
That someone forgot me.
That someone should have what I can't.

That peace without those memories.
Those words never to be thought of.
That face forgotten forever.
A forever unbothered heart.

It's however my choice.
I refuse to let myself forget that someone.
Although I am quite fine.
I am quite fine with letting go.

Letting go of that someone I never met.
Letting go of that someone I could trust.
Letting go of that someone who could've known it all.
Letting go of that someone I love.

...

I take back some of that past tense.
It's clear I still love that someone.
It just doesn't make sense.