I cant stop this time
i feel like falling to the ground
i have kept my promises to you
but i have to break this
i need a release
i sit on the tile floor and cut my wrist
pain flows over me
once was enough i thought
but once again I'm here again
i lay on the tile floor and hold myself
rocking back and forth
how lonely do i feel now
i wanted to mean something to you
(i like you) meant something to me when you said it
how did you not care
once was enough i thought
but it had to happen once more
for me to feel what i have lost in this world
what i had wanted the most i have lost in this life
i loved you did that mean anything to you
i cut my wrist and i know i promised i would not
how can you expect me to keep my promises when you didn't
now i have to look at you everyday and see what i cant have and know that i have lost you to her
i cut and lay there on the ground
a tear falls down my chin and drops on my body and i feel cold once again
i cant feel anything anymore
when i cut i cry not because of me but because i know i have lost you and a tear falls and lands on the tile floor making a puddle of tears form and i think i might drown
i cannot hold back
now i see you walking and i hide the cuts and the bruises
i have lost my best friend , a kind of friend we both have never had before but i cannot stand to be around you and have to hide my pain away, and loose my mind and the words stay unspoken because for once in my life i am not going to tell you how i feel right now
i would loose myself in my emotions and become vulnerable to you
something i will never do
how do you expect me to stay your friend if i get to be reminded everyday by what i cannot have and if your going to stay mad at me for breaking a promise
i cut because i am sad
i lay there and think to myself as the pain consumes me
and i start to scream
none can hear me none cares
i am alone like always
once again alone
once was enough i thought but i guess i am proven wrong again
i lay here alone and broken the pieces lay
you knew everything about me you knew i was sad and that i have had my heart broken before but you still took the chance and broke it again but only worse because for the first time in my life i think i was in love with you
and all you did was broke my heart and now there is nothing left of it for anyone to have or hold on to.
i lay here for the last time and relies that i am drifting away slowly
a death will be on your conscience tomorrow.
