Free

I've never been able to slow it down
it plays in fast forward.
If I cry the first tear
then the tears just wont stop pouring down...
Each 1 drowning me as they hit the ground.

I'm fighting this war with myself
maybe one day I'll find all the
hope that I lost.
I want to find my true self
but I'm running from the person I
really am...

I'm afraid of what I've become
I'm afraid as I see everything simply
crashing down in front of me...
what will it take for me to be free.

I've plagued myself with this disease
I've destroyed my life through this sickness...
Now I put myself to the true test.

I'm afraid of what will be...
I'm oh so afraid
of finding the real me.
I have lost myself in the maze
of life...

The maze of people I loved
left to rot and die.
I try to escape
but then 1 after the other,
they leave the world
and I am afraid I'll never
remember the little girl I
once was for the pain has taken over
and destroyed all emotions.

I am a hollow shell,
believing that earth is just a glimpse of hell.
I want to find myself...
I long to find the real me...
and allow my soul to be free