Knifes dance

I smile for you people and you think I'm happy
but inside I'm filled with pain
i know no escape so i sit here with this knife
i watch its beautiful dance across my skin
I'm cut deep as i dances and twirls over my arm
the blade guild-ed with blood i feel releaf
the whole dance becomes a mix of silver and blood
my eyes close so i can rest from this world of pain
nothing left now but the knifes dance in my head
but now I'm cold and i cant hear my heart
i see my house, my room, there my body lays
am i dead, am i dreaming,
is this heaven, hell, or purgatory