I cant deal with whats happing

I been trying so hard
I cant do much more
Another bad day
I dont want to be here

I want to go back
Back into my pretend place
I want the days to go by faster
I dont want to be around when i have to face things

I relize my best isnt good enough
Im all out of streanth
Trying so hard
Just not to run away
I cant take the easy way out
I need to deal with this
I need to talk
Even if im affarid

As im writting this
My phone rings
Just another thing
I been waiting for and isnt happing

Now my crying
I said i cant take anymore
And things keep comeing
I cant deal with this!!!
What arnt they understanding??????