Reflection

In my veins are the words I won't utter,
Crawling in my skin is always another,
Problems, self image, I'm not as smart as my mother.

Keep me in cages of incense and flowers,
Loving a life that's hollow, I cower,
And the eyes that are watching give a false sense of power.

Here lies my spirit, clipped wings from my birth.
Here lies my body, it's limp from it's girth,
Rest in peace who I am, sleep serene in their Earth.

I can't keep this up, I'm loosing my grip,
Can't go outside, the knife might just slip.
Won't cry anymore, I have to be strong.
Wouldn't sing anymore, there are no more songs.
My eyes they won't open, I'm too petrified.
I don't hear the world, they kill and they've lied.
I'm left as a carcass, with no family,
Don't cry at my funeral, you didn't bother with me.

Beat me, rape me, call me a b!#ch,
Say that bipolar is what caused this switch.
Tell me you love me, then take it back.
Yell what I'm not, and then scream what I lack.
"Pathetic that girl,
With the stained puffy eyes,"
You got what you wanted,
And yet you still cry.
I'm your transference,
That lump in your throat.
I'm all your problems,
And yet you still gloat.

So write down a list of all I've done wrong,
Tear out my rhythm, prevent me from song,
Hear all my cries and tear me to shreds,
Keep me mind when your out of your head,
And when this world of ours is finally dead...
Like a rug you pulled out your very own thread.

My veins, my skin, my self image is glass,
Reflecting your gold is essentially brass.
My power, my spirit, I'm actually you,
Descriptions of that you could never do.
My strength and my eyes, empty hopes never leave,
And just when you stop trying is when you believe...

"I AM MERELY YOUR REFLECTION"