Not So Reluctant

Versatile eyelashes flutter, confusing my veins.
Your thoughts eat away at me, my body loudly complains.
Nothing is what it seems, living with fingers crossed.
It's easy to fumble through the pages and end up painfully lost.

My mind works overtime, attempting to smooth this out,
Confusion leaks from me, I'm still not used to this lack of doubt.
It's been such a long time since the soil has felt fresh,
Wondering what it would be like to step out of this flesh.

Hushed conversations and soaring smiles,
Wishing to dust away with a brush these unwanted miles.
But the feeling of helplessness is something I cannot overcome.
Stuck to the bottom of my shoe, like a child's unwanted gum.

Optimism is bright- an idea I've yet to fully get used to,
But somehow I feel you're worthy of pursuit.