I can't

I feel so ashamed
you tel me not to
it sin't my fault.

i replay the night
over and over
in my mind.

the screaming.
the blood.
the sirens.

the lies.

the hospitol.
the lies.
going 'home'

you beg me to
tell the truth

you can't bear
to see me
hurting like this.

i shrug it off
liek
i always do.

and you cry
while i look down
at my hands.

i can't
I tell you.

I can't I can't.

you tell me I have to
or it will never
end.

I know how to
end
it.

you look me in
my eyes
and shake your head.

no i don't.
i don't know.
how to
end it.

i can't cry.
i can't tell.

i jsut can't.