Where are you?
the person I need to
see the most
is not here
where are you?
I need to hear you say
everything is going
to be okay
where are you?
I have news
that is making me
tremble
where are you?
Im scared
where are you?
I saw him
that is my news
where are you?
they were angry
burning
I saw the flames
where are you?
Im afraid
is he going to be there
Tuesday too?
where are you?
will I have to be
alone with him?
where are you?
why arent you coming?
where are you?
I need to hear you say
its alright
where are you?
I thought he had changed
where are you?
is it true?
once bad
always bad?
where are you?
I thought he was really changing
where are you?
cause I think
I though wrong
Pretend Im ok
I couldnt do it
I couldnt bring myself
to pretend
it was okay
I couldnt bring myself
to pretend
that that was what
I wanted
I couldnt pretend
I didnt realize
what kinds of
stress and frustration
you would bring
back into my life
I tried to pretend
I really did try
to pretend
I wanted to
continue talking
to you now
I opened and reopened
your email
a hundred times
only to sit
hands poised
over the keyboard
and tears flowing
down my cheeks
I couldnt do it
so I tried to ignore you
I tried to pretend
I had never sent you
an email
I still though about you
constantly
but I was able to
convince myself
not to write back
that is
until you emailed me again
and I had to write back
and I had t tell you
