I know youre listening
Though you sit silently
Doodling in your notebook
Perhaps writing a poem perhaps writing a note
The other students do not notice but I do
and it kills me
It doesnt??It kills me that youre doodling or writing
it kills me that you dont care
That you refuse to make eye contact
Or say two words to me
I know your listening
though perhaps youve looked up by now
Not at me
No I dont expect that much
But perhaps you are looking around
Perhaps you are realizing that
Others may know that it is you Im talking about
And perhaps your realizing
That yeah it really does hurt to see you walking away
I know your listening
though your trying hard not to
The only person you have to live with is yourself
you say
though guilt is a natural emotion
and you cant walk away so easily
if you feel guilty about it
I know your listening
And I know this poem is making you angry
you want to place the blame on me
You want to say it is my fault we arent sisters anymore
I dont blame anyone
But I do ask you why?
Why dont you bother trying?
Would you really rather just give up?
I know your listening
Wishing we could just move on to the next person
Let the next writer share his words
But I dont want to stop because
I know your listening
And that is something you rarely do for me
These days
