For a moment
I thought things were changing
for a moment
I thought you were
actually going
to talk to me
I though wrong
Again
So now I wonder:
Why did you bother
writing the email?
Why did you bother
telling me
you didnt want to fight any more
if you
werent going to bother
actually speaking to me?
It this
A game to you?
Do you think
this is funny?
Well grow up
Life is not about
Drama
Grow up
and learn
that you create these situations
for yourself
You always need to have something
putting you
in the spot light
Well Im sorry
but you need to
grow up
Drama may be a time passer for you
but when it comes down to it
being in the spotlight
for anything and everything
all the time
is not going to get you through life
Working hard and doing the right thing
Most of the time
Is
Im tired of your stupid mind games
You say I never open up
you get pissed and genuinely angry
Because of it
Well
neither do you
I have to work my ass
Off
Just to get you to tell me a little of how your feeling
Im tired of it
Im tired of every night l
lying in bed
wondering
if youre going to talk to me
tomorrow
Im tired of turning every corner and thinking
your there
and wondering why your everywhere now
But not when
we actually spoke
Im sick of being reminded of you
every where I go
Sick of accomplishing
something
Or
Realizing
Something
And wanting to go tell you
only to realize
you dont care
You dont want to know
You dont talk to me
And most of all
Im tired of the ache
I feel inside
Every time
I even think about you
The pit in my stomach
the ache in my chest
and the pressure behind my eyes
I pretend Im ok
I laugh I talk
I smile
but that doesnt mean
I mean it
I can lie with the best of them
you said it yourself
Just cause I feel like shit
doesnt mean I need
the whole world
to know
Least of all you
If I let you see
that Im not ok
that would be showing
just how very vulnerable
I am right now
I cant show that weakness
I cant let on
Vulnerability
So please
just save us both
so much pain
and let us
work this out
I want my best friend back
I want to rid myself
of this sick feeling
And I want to know youre not hurting
Dont you?
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