Missing

This terrible aching feeling inside

Eats away at me

like maggots

gnawing at my soul

at my body

chewing me from the inside out

Knowing theres a wall there

A wall of

he said she said lies

I say I wont ask what they are

I say I wont push you anymore-

Its not like you can mind that much

Anyway-

Me pretending I dont care

After all

you did say

losing me would be

No skin off your neck

Yeah you said you were joking

but your sure not acting like it

But I did say I wont push

I did say I wont make you angrier

by asking what youre talking about

So I wont

But I will sit here quiet

And write and write and write

And hope to a god I dont always believe in

That you will ask to read

My words

And that you will

See this

And

I dont know

Am I asking for a miracle?

Am I asking for a miracle

by asking you to tell me what

Your speaking of?

What are these said lies?

Is it wrong for me to be

frustrated

nearly to tears

to know you are just walking away?

Is it so wrong for me to miss you

Even though you say

your still here?

But then

you havent said that in awhile

the new set of words is were drifting and

you dont have to live w/ anybody but yourself

and its not so much were drifting as

youve just gotten closer to everyone else

Sure

I know your secrets

The ones you wont tell anyone else

But

I want to be an actual friend too

Like we were before

I want that back

Sure we laugh

and share our moments

But I feel so very much like

something is

missing
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