Hi..
reading this makes me realy sad, I know i sound like everybody else, but you have to eat. Atleast talk to someone about it, seek help.(if you havent allready) I have never been in you'r situasion so i don't know what to tell you, and i'm not gonna say i know how you feel, because i dont. But i know too many people die from not eating,, please don't be one of them.

I'm on the same path :( I know how hard it is. Amazing poem :)