When I had you, I took you for granted,
I would listen to what they had to say,
and I ignored my heart completely.
Yes, I did love you,
but I trembled at the thought of getting hurt.
Scared at the thought of being insecure,
putting total trust in another.
I let it all get to my head.
But now, now you are gone.
I keep thinking, this can't be it!
it can't be over!
I think that this hurt is just temporary,
like a simulated heart break,
but then i come back to reality,
and it is so real,
why did we let it get so bad between us?
I know it could have been different.
At the same time I know it was right,
im guessing you feel the same,
or it wouldnt be this way.
sometimes it hurts so bad,
so hurt that I cry all night,
so angry that I curse every word i can think of,
so confused and mistified that I sit and stare at the wall for hours.
you said goodbye forever,
and that is what is killing me.
i never had that chance to say everything i wanted,
so i'm saying it now.
i love you, or did, or always will.
this pain I feel is so real,
because something I loved was taken away from me.
I would not trade any moment we had, any kiss we shared, any hug we embraced, anything.
the memories I have is what is keeping me alive,
I will never forget you. Never.
