I used to...

I am not a man
I used to be a marine

I am not a boy
I used to dream

I am not alive
I used to breath

I am not anything
I used to see

My lies have gotten me nothing
but heartache and pain
I ruined the only good thing in life
and now I linger in disdain
Breath in ash
cough up blood

thats only the beginning
Of the pain that i deserve
Lock me up
throw away the key
cement me in
no one needs this misery

I brought this on myself
why you ask
i haven't got a clue
she is everything to me
and i screwed that up too

burns my cuts
salt my eyes
shave the truth
and falsify my sighs

I was once a man
ready for anything
now i only want death
so i can feel nothing