The Abyss

The wind ruffles in my hair

As I stand on top of this high hill,

At the edge of this cliff

That drops in to an endless abyss

The air carries the voice of the forest to me

But I can not understand the voices

My mind is too clouded,

Too muddled with my own sad thoughts

To hear the comforting words flowing around me

I stare down the rocky cliff

Wondering if I'll ever have the courage to fall

Am I afraid to?

No, not afraid...not fearful at all

Just cautious

Just wondering what will happen at the end

But not ready to go out and search for it

The wind picks up,

Making my dress dance

And goosebumps rise on my arms

I let it caress my body

I close my eyes and feel it twirling around me

But this time, this one time

It is not giving me any comfort at all

I am too consumed with my inner thoughts

My subconscious and conscious minds are battling each other

One says, Fall!

The other says Wait!

But I can not decide who says what

The cacophony of voices is too loud

Voices? Are there not only two?

Only two voices

That sound like a million

They echo throughout this empty cliff

Echo

Echo

Echo

Never finding an end

And yet, is there not an end?

There is an end to everything

Just as there is a beginning

And a middle

There must be an end

As is the circle of life

But as I look once again

Down this dark abyss

I think

Is there an end to all this?

Or does it just keep going,

going

going

Is the dark really all that bad?

It has just a beautiful voice

A light, soprano song that weaves through out my body

Making me smile with the first contentment

I have had in a while

Does darkness have to equate evil?

No....darkness can be a beautiful melody

Bringing happiness through out one's life

For we are born through a tunnel of darkness

And so, is not the darkness just as sacred

As the light we all revere?

Does the light have to equate goodness?

No....for I have seen many evil people

Who say they walk in the light

The light can be so vicious, so cruel

It tends to make some blind to the beauty of life

I walked the path of the light for many years

And I was never happy

It was not until I approached the darkness

That everyone so fears

That I did find all the things in life that made me smile

Truly smile, not fake a smile

I look down in to the deep abyss below

And I think...

Maybe the fall wouldn't be so bad.